monday, may 4th, is the day we start our BTN in Maran, Pahang. from what I've been able to gather, things are... well, crap, in BTN. If things are crap enough that they stress me out beyond all other means of control, I will eventually blog about it.
to the few people who read this blog, I hope that I'm alive to blog about the experience when it's done. BTN is from the 4th to the 8th, and following that is induction til the 21st at Pangkor.
the 18 days we spent together meant more to me than you'll ever know. an epiphany of sorts that just confirmed what i suspected all along, if you will.
things are empty here without you. that word hardly does the situation justice, but 'empty' serves just as well as 'incomplete', 'desolate' and a dozen other adjectives that could fit in that statement. simple things like waking up and knowing that you're there, or whining at you to cook (since i so obviously can't) are better remembered than all the places we went to (with the exception of the Phantom of the Opera; sorry dear, that one just really blew us both away though, didn't it?).
i'll wait as long as it takes.
-ionie Now playing - Kimi ni Mune Kyun, Yuu Kobayashi (Maria Holic)
for the first time in very long time, in another country altogether, I dreamt of LMH. Of us in school, attending classes like always, looking for missing teachers and studying, all of us, together.
so i felt so awful that- i skipped class today. i missed a meeting with a tutor today. i woke up, looked around, saw that everything was still shit, and went back to sleep again. rinse, cycle, repeat 3x. i cried my way through 25% of a tissue box. finally dragged self out of bed and onto computer, browse blogs and realise again that everyone is coming back...
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