There are some things I will never be able to tell the people I love...
Like how listening to you play the guitar makes me wish you'd never stop
Like how I only gave Final Fantasy a shot because you mentioned it in passing
Like how I was drawn to Anime because of your drawings
Like how a (badly) named guild pretty much summed up my friendships in an MMORPG
Like how I always wished I had a sister like you
Like how your hug still remains in my memory, even though things like the differences between malarial parasites cannot
Like how the sound of you playing the piano makes my heart sing
Like how grateful I am that you called back after I called you to tell you about LMH
Like how you always remind me that really, things aren't that bad in Seremban
Like how I always wished I had a brother like you
Like how badly I wish we could have built the ultimate gamers' home in Seremban (and struggle through exams together)
Like how grateful I am (was?) to be included in SOS
Like how happy I was to be included in the credits in the ball cartoon, even though I hardly did anything
Like how much I wish I was back in Sayfol just to be with you again
Like how thankful I was that you were there in A Levels when it seemed no one was
Like how happy I was when I saw you, a familiar face in IMU, on the day we registered
Like how pretty the flower you gave me was
Like how much I felt like crying when I realised I had forgotten to bring the same flower home
Like how my heart shattered when you told me you were leaving
Like how close I felt to you when we were in Perhentian
Like how touched I was that you came to look in on me when I felt so sick and nauseous on that little island, and brought me dinner too!
Like how I knew that you were only dancing with me that Halloween because every one of your friends had a girl to slow dance with too
Like how much I wished I would be asked to dance by someone else that same night instead of you
Like how your poetry and lyrics made me cry
Like how I feel bittersweetly touched when I hear the music you write for her
Like how I still listen to the music you wrote before, for the memories and for the beautiful compositions
Like how grateful I am that someone picked on me and made you talk to me that night
Like how much I miss playing basketball with all of you, like we did during extra lessons for O Levels
Like how good the carrot cake your mom made for my birthday tasted, and how I've never eaten carrot cake since
Like how much your birthday card meant to me
Like how much I loved being a part of all your lives...
Like how much I miss all of you so very much, and there would be no other place I'd rather be than to be back in your midst, laughing, crying, yelling, screaming at the world, playing, hugging, arguing and making up again after...
Just like the old times.
(I have the feeling I will come back and edit this post over and over again ><)
(If only because more people make memories in my heart and mind all the time.)
-ionie
9:37 PM
posted by Shiawase
